First time I had climbed in around four years, and even then I barely tried as I am simply terrified of falling even in completely illogical situations. I felt a lot better on the wall this time around, but there was still moments where I could feel the fear seeping in.
My arms actually don't hurt yet, it would be more correct to say that my forearms and fingers simply aren't functioning. Hopefully over the summer my trips to the gym will make this less of an issue, and also make me not quite as complete suck at climbing.
I didn't make it up any of the walls and I even completely ignored the routes, but to be honest I don't care. I am proud of even the small distance I covered, maybe because I tried something outside my comfort zone, or maybe cause I know how much it took to be able to ignore the fear and step up to the challenge.
Some days you realize just what you are up against. The world is filled with beautiful people, if you don't stack up, do you really stand a chance? Some days it is painfully obviously to see why you get overlooked.
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